Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tonight, I was watching a bunch of videos on the Mormon Channel in search of an answer to my question.
Today, I believe I received a prompting from the Holy Spirit to share my blessing, that I received yesterday, with my mother. But I was scared of what would happen if I told her. I know my parents will not go and say, kick me out of the house. They wouldn't do that. I am their daughter and their first born child.
I was still so unsure. So I went online and talked to a few Elders on Mormon.org. Unfortunately, they made me feel like I should not have shared my blessing with Elder Eberle because sometimes God just wants to keep something between you and Him. But since I had already shared it, they said don't worry about it.
I expressed my frustration on this matter to Elder Eberle. He advised that I watch the video called Courage (http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=2221439363001). From that video, I learned that being brave isn't not being scared. It's simply having faith. He also asked me to read 1 Nephi 7 which he was hoping would provide some guidance.
After talking to Elder Eberle, I began asking myself, did I actually receive a prompting from the Spirit or was it just me? So I decided to watch the three part video of Patterns of Light with Elder Bednar. He, to me, has always been an inspiration. I often watch his videos for guidance.
I still didn't have the answer I was looking for. So as a last resort, I decided to talk to Jade. Jade is a returned missionary who used to teach alongside one of the sister missionaries who taught me. She told me that Elder Bednar has also said "Don't worry about it." Jade said that means "don't stress if it's you or Him - you're trying your best to do what's right, so go and do."
The only conclusion I have reached for this matter is looking to God Himself and asking for help and guidance, because I truly have to idea what to do. But I have faith that God will help me. He always does.
(Feel free to comment! I would love any feedback I can get! :) )
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